Sleep

I am so tired. AND I got 8 straight hours of sleep last night because Neil took care of the baby. I'm currently pretending to sleep because I just need some alone time. I didnt even get up to pump last night. Shame on me but I was just soooo tired and we had enough bottles pumped.

For the last week, jack has struggled with sleep. It started off just being between the hours of 11 pm and 1:30 am but progressed to being at every time I would put him down for a nap. We thought it might be gas because boy is little man gassy. Then I thought it could be because I was putting him down for naps in his crib which was new to him.

Yesterday he took it to a whole new level when he pretty much screamed his way through his naptime. I remembered that my friend Hannah's baby wanted to be swaddled all the time.

For the first two weeks of Jack's life, he also wanted to be swaddled. But then he started sweating through his clothes and/or blanket and would kick the blanket off. He was too little for the swaddling blanket with the little pocket for his feet and the flap to Velcro him in so we couldn't use it yet.

I decided yesterday to try it regardless of how hot he was and it fit him better. Oh my gosh the difference! He slept in his crib and fell asleep immediately after being swaddled. It was a miracle!

Of course, Neil got the benefits of this last night. When I got up a little while ago to check on them (Neil stayed in the other room with jack last night so I could sleep), Neil said he he had no problems and it was"easy." I had to take a deep breath because I immediately thought "he's probably wondering why I'm so tired all the time since it was so "easy" for him." I wanted to remind him that I get up with him every night and have to pump every time I'm up too. Instead, (and this is a big deal for me) I simply said "I'm glad it was so easy for you" and walked away.

I'm lucky that Neil is willing to feed Jack during the weekend nights and that Jack is sleeping better but some little part of me wanted him to see how tough it can be sometimes during the night. I have tried to shield Neil from that since he has to work. We have never kept jack in our bedroom at night. Jack and I sleep in the living room that is way far away from our room since Neil has sleeping problems and is working.

So two thumbs up for a good nights sleep for Jack and I. One thumb down for me wishing it would have been just a little bit tougher on Neil last night. I'm horrible, I know. I just don't think he truly gets how tiring it is to care for a baby around the clock on a daily basis. But I'm grateful for all that he does for us.


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